ADDICTION!!

It has been a very long time since my last post.So I felt a need to write a new one. Well this one is a semiautobiographical poem because it has reflections of not only my life but also of the lives of many people who have trodden slightly different path than mine to reach the same place.
Unlike the first one, I have tried to keep the usage of the words as simple as possible so that unlike last time all may find themselves comfortable while reading it.

ADDICTION!

I was three when I began to notice things,
Thoughts in my mind seemed to have wings,
They flew around.....I listened to every sound,
I saw the train getting to station at my granny"s house,
bewildered was I watching the pace of a mouse.
Thrill was the charmwhen I saw jumping monkeys,
Thought of horse to be donkeys!!
A child"s mind was in full motion,
Yes! it was addiction!!

Time waits for none.....memories are full of fun,
I used to go to school,
but found in it there was nothing cool!
I always sat at the bench last,
tried in vein to grab the matter fast.
But then a ray of hope came from nowhere,
I began to understand things and got a respectable sphere.
I then loved going to my friends ,
but never thought it has to come to an end.
Cried a lot at our farewell function.
Oh Yes! I admit it was addiction.

Board results came..and along with it came the coveted fame.
I was my parent"s pride and they all were by my side.
Hopes rose, I can face competition,
But damn! I had to try repetition.
soon was I at the "mecca" of dreams
that guarenteed one to be churned into cream.
there i began to surf net at the "surface"
and soon was out of the deadly race!
Sleeping , fun , music , movies , cigerrete and drinks
was my day to day work,
so finally I got failure as perk.
But hail! there was no repentence
as well as there was no function.
Yes ! I guess it was addiction!

Now is the college time
and this part of life is sublime.
You are in a new world where you do what you wish!
Eyeline someoneor swim like a lonley fish.
The best part of life is here,
where you can give yourself a gear.
Where the head is held high and mind is without fear!
Tagore said that, the truth lies here.
Time to create some everlasting relations,
blast parties , have functions.
If not this , what is addiction??

This is my journey so far,
But now ,I am myself at war!
The war is inner conflict of emotions, of logic;
What is addiction??
I see people have a name,
Inspite, they crave for fame.
I see guys think of girls,
Hardly are they concerned of other pearls!
A doper yearns to dope,
In it"s absence, he has hope!

A politician wants power
and dreams of money shower.
A tycoon wants his bussiness to grow,
though he has billions to throw.
A player wants to win,
for that one goal, he is always keen.
A robber has to rob,
though he knows it"s a worthless job.
A burgler has to steal,
for this does he ever feel??
An army has to fight,
they arent concerned with people"s plight.
A pope has to make rules,
though to world he may seem a fool.
Everything in this world is outcome of some reason,
May be that is addiction!

But what of an individual? a common person?
Does he give in logic or reason?
Most people do things that others plan,
seemingly unaware of whether they can.
But the world breeds on immitation.
Everyone has an outcome of his emotions.
And it"s on and on without interrruption,
Yes! that is what we call ADDICTION!!!

DESERTED AND DEAD

"Words cant fathom the pathos of a human heart".some has said it long ago. i never know to wat extent is it correct. but whenever i find some thoughts clouding my mind..nostalgic or merry... i prefer gaining soltitude and describe it on paper....if i could rewind my life 13 months back.. which i never wish.. i could have relived the most torturous days of my life. how it feels to fail.how it feels to have no one by your side to console YOU..and when you are blamed by one and all for the situation you are in.. time when you even think of putting end to all these miseries in a single shot!!.. if u know what i mean!................................I had had a fairly good academics upto 10th grade..but never could build on the good start.as a result, inspite all of my hard sought efforts i failed miserably at the all india level competitive exams several times. and then this thought of unwanted guilt crept in my mind.I have moved on. have i??..oh yes!! for sure...but recently i was lonley and sad a few months ago for some reason and my mind just flew past to those days of havoc and truma..and i penned it down as a poem.. i m not a looser as it may emphasise. but then i felt a need to give a background detail to the poem . in absence of this this would sound like yet another outcome of a broken heart.. which indeed some of my friends thought.. may be that is also true to some extent.. i m just not sure about it.
it was written on 19th feb, 2009
hope you guys like it.


DESERTED AND DEAD
Sitting don"t know where am I,
can hear no sound , here no birds fly.
Stretches beyond me a forlorn desolate heath,
only bones and blood , veins like a wreath.

Once a knight , who fought with life;
doomed everytime ; but soon rose with vibe;
sitting dont know where m I,
tears evaporated , grief much ; but there is no sigh.

For years , I trod down the road;
there were turns , there were milestones;
I crossed several flooded waters;
but came gross at the hand of cheaters.

After so many sunsets , I thought the sky;
I looked around , but found noone nearby;
For what the damn was all this done,
when it was nothing for others but just fun!!!

The sky is crimson , red is the earth;
I try to listen but it"s no worth.
Blood still in my veins , all numb with endless pain;
There is no one to call me back again!!

The sullen darkness invites me,
calling"Come!let me set you free!"
O! one last chance , i give to me;
crossing all profanity , doing all insane,
But damn! there is no one to call me back again.

For what have i stick so long?
Among all odes in the world, for me there is no song;
The colours now are thin and fade;
sitting dont know where m I,
DESERTED AND DEAD!!!!

my 1st blog

sorry 4 sm mishaps
actually m not used 2 dis
dis as mah 1st time..and definitely manymore 2 follow...hope u dont mind it
but i actually dunno wat 2 write
hi! dis is me sourav digant
m an engineering student at pune
well, dr r really many things 2 write about
actually i got inspired wen i saw my bro doin it. thanx a lot 2 him 4 introducin me 2 a whole lot of dis new world.
may b dis is a kool way 2 xplore ur thoughts.. nd let othrs find it, criticise it or may b appriciate it.
so here i m.. at it
ritenow i don hav nythin 2 write about. but will soon post some crdiitable stuff asap.
bye 4 now dis is me sourav digant , sining out...
c u guys later!!!!

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